Day 12/13

It's been 12 days. I pretty much slept the whole day 12 away. Haha! No issues there. 

I am partway through day 13, and this has been the day for the books. I have had a good day. Most of my friends, and my husband are smokers. Tonight was the first night around my friends, since I quit smoking. 

At the point where everyone gets up, and heads outside, to light up, I headed outside too. No cigarette. No lighter. Just sat outside, testing my willpower, while my husband and friends smoked. I did it! I may have been gritting my teeth for a minute, and mentally smacking myself in the brain, but, I didn't give in to the urge.

 I have gone outside, multiple times, tonight, without lighting up. Each time I had the urge, I said something to Mitch, then rubbed my patch, as a self reminder, that I AM receiving nicotine, just in a different way. ;) Lol!! 

I went to the salon today, and got all of my hair chopped off. New me, new do, I guess. Not really new me, but the non smoker me. I like this me. I love this me. 

 I cannot wait for the day, when I no longer want to smoke, when I'm around smokers. 

Even though I wanted to smoke tonight, I didn't. That's huge! When I tried to quit before, I would always light up, with my friends. 

Now,  don't get me wrong, I'm not blaming my friends at all. It was my fault. I think the reason I would give in and light up, before was because I felt like I couldn't be outside, in the conversation, if I wasn't smoking, too. Well, I was wrong, and that was just an excuse. =P

No. More. Excuses.

Here's to 2 weeks!!